Note how happy I look to the left while to the right – conformed, I look unhappy.
Addiction is often a sign of what you gotta work on within.
I didn’t love my true self:
I’m wild! My true nature is wild! I didn’t love myself. Instead I tried to embrace a fake restrained version of myself that was created by fake familial and societal bullshit systemhead ass expectations.
The minute this ephiphany hit me, I felt two knots in my sacral finally get free.
Cause I am now me and am giving myself permission to finally be me.
Hopefully I will start to attract the right people into my life.
Makes sense why I have always been attracted to lgbtq people ✊🏻🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈
It makes sense why I attracted assholes who tried to make me feel guilty when my wild true self comes out – they were an extension of the inner hate I had for me in me.
I truly had self hate.
Makes sense why I used to just apologise for my existence.
All those people were low key telling me to own me!
I was scared subliminally to own that wild self cause it is so unrestrained and if I let myself go….. wow, I can’t believe I fear me.
It all makes sense.
I used to think it was demons but that IS me, myself I was taught to shun! The unbridled untamed true me!
Since I love myself, enemies no longer have power over me.
It pays not to give a fuck. As the old saying goes, freedom is never having to say your sorry! 👍🏻
And I’m tired of apologising for being me.
This also explains why when I drink people are nicer and blessings come in – it’s cause I am being me:
…So I thought!