Holy shit that selenite wand is legit glowing…..
The drinking urges, the subliminal feeling of a “need” to mingle with pee-pole….
It all makes sense.
As I said here:
I’m different. Way different than most people.
Even as a child subliminally I semsed that I was a Soul, not a spirit, having a human experience in which from time to time I would just like to indulge in the human experience and “relate” to most people in a way by allowing myself to descend to their level – as I internally saw it – and hang with them for a lil bit, like an alien.
There was a disconnect between that part of my Soul that desires the Earthly human experience and a part of me, my true Higher Self, that felt guilty, and felt like I was on a mission and that I shouldn’t indulge in the shit show of the human tableau of experiences.
I feel more whole now that this realisation has come to me. In part I think the spiritual force into sex work may have had something to do with me coming to terms with this ephiphany.
Now I feel whole.